- Smile wheneva he's mentioned in conversation
- Bring him up casually so he can be mentioned in converstaion
- Go to bed thinking about him
- Wake up thinking about him
- Lay in bed staring out the window listening to old mottown love songs (yea I do that DON'T JUDGE ME!)
Allow Me To Introduce MySelf!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Crush?
Girl you so crazy
Crazy People
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Mask
They don't understand the extent of my love
The love of a lil chocolate Anjel only few deserve
She understood things beyond her couldn't grasp. But she hid it form them cause she knew they couldn't handle it. Heave were the burdens she endured, dark were the secrets she kept, she edured it alone and without complaint so that no one else would have to.This quiet suffering aged her, so she never got to be a child.
Her way of think was strange, her play patterns unorthodox
A grown ass woman playin in the sandbox
That was my mask. My childhood self was only a façade even as a child. I use to pretend to be daddy's lil girl. Cause I couldn't bare the shame and humiliation on my father's face if he knew the truth. Father my innocence was lost, I was afraid you'd leave to if you knew the truth. A real daddy's girl smiles and is happy, she doesn't know what it feels like to bleed before puberty. She isn't sneaky when she is forced to hide her blood stained panties. A real daddy's girl doesn't do those things. A real daddy's girl doesn't know what sperm taste like.
I just want someone to save me. Take me some place that I can take off my masks cause I've been pretending since I was a child…but it never was fun
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
High Heelz
I'm not one of them chicks to don high heels everywhere I go
Cause I don't need heels to get me where I'm going
My boots do that just find
Plus they're comfortable
Plus you never know when you may get into a situation where you may need to drop everything and run
Maybe dangerous, but that's how I like to live my life
Running. Wild. Free
I don't want my steps ordered
In some heels I ordered
You look at her in her new pumps and think to yourself
"she's going places"
I look down at my worn shoes and know
I've been.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Guess what I am
Monday, January 25, 2010
Contradictions ♥
A spiritual abomination
I'm confidently insecure
I'm lovingly full of hate
I'm extraordinarily ordinary
yet I've still got so much to learn.